10/01/22

the Booke of the Theatre

yeah so yesterday I went out and bought a binder notebook and some looseleaf graph paper at the meijers (despite being under psychic attack from all angles in such an accursed place). i'm planning on using it as a sort of story bible, like a place to collect all the notes i make on different aspects of the story where i can access them quickly

im like, chronically disorganized, in the sense that ive come catastrophically close to life-ruining circumstance through my own inability to keep track of shit - not for lack of trying, mind you. i've tried planners, calendars, phone apps, journals, automated messages, computer programs, post-it notes on every surface, every kind of notebook under the sun - nothing seems to have any staying power, and even if something does seem to work for a while it only takes a day or two of downtime before the messages stop sticking and i'm lost again.

EXCEPT. my dry-erase calendar has been hanging on my wall serviceably, keeping track of my doctor's appointments and weekly medications just fine for about a year and a half. i haven't missed one yet. maybe it's the scope of the thing that determines its success - the calendar keeps track of a limited number of things, and only looks about a month ahead. most of the squares are blank but every morning i cross out the previous day (i guess it also helps to mark time, as all of my days sort of bleed into each other trapped as i am within the Time Prison. i have other things to keep track of, but they don't go on the dry erase calendar, because that would compromise its function as a timekeeper. too many hoops and the tiger decides to eat the circus guy instead or whatever the saying is.

so i'm trying a binder. one of the many issues i run into vis a vis informational organization is that i'll scribble on whatever's available to me so notebooks tend to make my life harder and more complicated because it's just Another place to record information rather than the New Only One - the hope is the modular aspect of the binder will allow me to hold onto all the miscellany i generate around my theater project, keeping it in one easily-referenced place, while still letting me rearrange and add things as i see fit. (added bonus ill be able to keep printouts of art/written stuff if i so choose!)

naturally, because i'm me, i have to be prepared for this not to shake out and to have wasted ten bucks on a thing that is just another annoying object, but i've spent some time putting it together and i'm really quite hopeful. despite how i might be making it seem its functionally just a notebook that lends itself to being Arranged and Rearranged.

the next obvious question is then why did you build a whole fucking website if you're just going to use a binder, dummy. well i didn't think about that at first but the thing is the website and the binder serve different purposes - the website is for Other People to learn about my story and the guys in it, and for posting it eventually if everything works out that way. the notebook is for me. nobody's going to read it except me, or at least it's not intended for other people to read it, so i don't have to worry about censoring myself to avoid sharing spoilers or putting out information that might be changed later. also i just like having physical things - i like writing by hand (every year i did nanowrimo it was by hand, ouch) and i like being able to touch and hold and operate things manually. (it's part of the reason i still haven't let go of doing la pomponina entirely as a stop-motion animated film even though that's physically impossible for me to execute right now). and, now that i think about it, the reason a lot of the digital solutions to my disorganization problem have worked out even worse than the others.

here's to hanging on to information, i guess. and down with tech btw explode tech with bombs